MY LIST OF RANDOM AND COMPLETELY NON-RELATED UPDATES:

1. it is 2.30 AM and i am still motivated to study. drank a cup of green tea with 2 tea bags. i don't know if it actually works... but i'll psych myself into thinking it does. your mind is more powerful than u think. ( i am still amazed by the story about the beyond obese mexican dude who lost half his weight simply by thinking that he HAD indeed lost weight )

2. i am hungry. practically every night i go to bed with an almost empty stomach and it growls and grumbles until i eventually fall asleep. when i wake up again, the first thing that pops into my mind is "damn, i'm hungry. " i am beginning to feel convinced that i have worms in my stomach...that are only alive when i am in australia ( or at least they're hungrier than when i'm in msia )

3. i want to go shopping so badly. i feel like getting a bikini!!! goodness knows for what cos i don't like swimming in the sea, and everyone knows i don't need to sit under the sun and tan or i'll become charcoal...but i still want one. they're pretty :) although i think i'd still be a little too shy to wear. *blush*

4. 16 days to home and i am getting very excited! *jumps screams dances* evidently..

5. I CANNOT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO END.

6. maybe i'm not as motivated to study as i thought i was. i realised i just spent an hour on the phone...and now i'm blogging. *guilty glance*

7. i've been having sudden desires to open a boutique and design my own clothes in the future. i guess my past dreams and aspirations from when i was 10 are trying to relive themselves. how fun though right? worth a thought.

8. i can't believe i opened my big mouth and told my brother that i would perform a song for his wedding. *faints* now i'm scared. what if i go up there..and i forget my chords?! or...i sing off key?! or...i TRIP?! then again, quite exciting. it's time i stepped out of my comfort zone and did something i know that i would eventually enjoy. (assuming i don't screw up )

9. seriously, freaking hungry.

i can't seem to concentrate on studying right now. maybe it's the emo-ness + stress.

i don't know. don't really care for now. someone give me a hug. (where are u when i need u?!  *pout* )

yesterday marked the end of yet another year in OCF. i can't believe 2 entire semesters have gone by! it's absolutely insane. i know i say this time and time again, but i'll say it once more. TIME FLIES. just this february i was embarking on a new 'journey'..trying my hands at cell leading... and yesterday, i bode farewell to all official cell leading responsibilities. somewhat a relief actually.

looking back, there's so many things i wish i'd done. so many things i could've done better as a leader. yet at the same time, i'm proud of the little that i actually did. i thank God for each of my members who make JustZion, Just Zion. it felt like just yesterday that we were all trying to crack our brains to come up for a name for our cell. crazy! i thank my co-leaders, Bernard and Debbie...who have put so much time and effort into the cell.

it's been a roller coaster ride. sometimes i felt incompetent, unimportant, stressed..and other times i felt joy, pride, loved. still, it didn't matter whether i was on a high or on a low, i knew that God was walking me through it and that's what kept me going. that's what kept ALL of us going, i'm sure.

it's been a good year thus far! only a few months left till we usher in 2009. let's make the most of it!

*two thumbs up to all OCF Clayton 2008 cell leaders!*

my wisdom tooth is growing. the tiny section in the back of my jaw where its meant to grow out of is swollen. it hurts. i can't close my jaw properly my top jaw will press onto it. so i chew like an old lady that has lost all her teeth. well, at least it gives me a little glimpse of the future. *shudder*

why does growing up have to hurt? just pop out quick and easy already!

 i miss being young. i miss being frivolous, doing things without having to think of the consequences ( at least not for the first few years in life when everything you do is cute. any point beyond that your parents will start disciplinary actions for fear that their child will one day become a social outcast )

i miss going to kindergarten..which was what... a minute's walk from my house? i miss going to 'class' and then falling asleep on the couch as soon as i got home because well..i've just spent 3-hours playing with plasticine and my body was using up all its energy to burn the wonderful lunch i just had. boy was it all so taxing! i still remember all the praises i got from my teachers for drawing 'so well' and making the best ever plasticine handbag! *flips hair* but along with such self-assuring praises, came my fair share of harsh discipline. i never used to do my homework (because i always forgot..honest!) and i remember getting called up to the front of class and having to spend the whole time standing there. i cried.

i miss primary school. exams were a piece of cake! i miss being the so-called leader of the 'bitchy' group. (apparently i was. i still find this 'truth' to be utter nonsense. i'm the sweetest thing ever, seriously) speaking of sweets, i miss buying them for measly cost of 5 cents. what can you get from 5 cents nowadays? not even 1/4 of a square from a tissue roll. and the utility doesn't even come anywhere near the utility you could get from a (cheap) sweet melting so sinfully in your mouth. primary school was where i made friends that have stuck to me up to this very day. not many can boast of having friendships lasting 13 years and counting.

i miss high school. everything about it was awesome..except SPM. SPM is insane. the only thing more insane  than SPM is people actually  feeling the need to be so diverse that they take every possible subject under the sun from biology to culinary skills. i'll tell u guys something, taking 16 subjects doesn't prove versatility, it proves uncertainty! all bitterness aside, everything else about high school was memorable. *reminiscent gaze*

okay, i'm getting bored of my 'i misses'. talk about digressing. how did i get from the pain in my tooth to a quick summary of my life?

MY NAME IS NOT JESSICA!!!

my boyfriend is freaking crazy!!! please tell him that i DO NOT suit the name Jessica! it's so common! (sorry to all Jessicas out there)

grrr...

that aside, might as well update since i'm in the computer lab at uni. my router just died out on me. but thank God that it happened the day after i finished my assignment which required a LOT ot researching. *phew*

oh goodness, i never know what to write anymore. i used to be able to just crap my way through. i should probably do my statistics assignment due tomorrow =]

bye.

janey!!!! my best fren!!! yay!!
since...saturday was it?? must
remember anniversary u
know...so..keep this testy and nvr delete
it so that we'll know when it is...it's 4th
sept. 2004....let's keep counting the yrs
till we die aightz?! ok..so the choice of
place is up to me..so i pick..San
Francisco Steakhouse..yay! and i give u
the honour of paying..no need to thank
me..haha..okok..fine..a lil' of budget..so
next choice would be.. my plaCE? or
yours..whichever...we'll have ice
cream ..i'll get m&ms ..we put into the
ice cream..and add all sorts of other
crap...then.since we'd be so fat by
then..we'll go padang and "walk" it
off...then..we walk back..then..end of
celebration..gosh..so sad..maybe i
should get some sparkling wine..to go
with the ice cream..i think after that tak
larat to jalan
anymore..haha..anyway..i'm serious ya
know..every word...we'll have it! the date
the day exam finishes..on the dOt! can't
wait..dun forget u know! -ming- hugZ

Jane
09/7/2004 7:17 pm

hie hie!!! i declare you me bestest best
fwen too ming ming!!! (",) we will have
to celebrate..... erm...erm.... we'll have
ice cream and chocolates...and...and...
CHAMPAGNE!!! then...we'll call alll our
fwens and we'll......CELEBRATE!!
nyahahhaha.... but FIRST..... we'll have
to plan when..... hmmmm....... oh vell... i'll
leave that part to you...k??? k....
anyvays... me realli realli glad u picked
me to be ur best fwen.... ^-^ muackers!!

Ming
09/19/2004 1:35 am

i just realised i mentioned in my testy
that the celebration was to be held the
day after exams over..how come
suddenly we have it so early one??
strange..anyhow...sadly we didn't get to
add them m&ms..aish..we got so sick
by the end of it due to overconsumption
of chocolate...chocolate
cyrup+chocolate chunks..*puke* haha..i
think it's pointless for me to tell u bout
jane..since ive said it sooo many times
in previous testys...plus u guys already
know what she's like..lemme tell u
smthing else..she's not much of a
duck..i won't tell u straight out...u have to
think ...think and try to understand the
meaning behind that..o-ho-ho..what
else? jane's me best pal! so..go get
your own! oh...she's bad at
mandarin..not that i'm good..but she's
bad-der..haha...wo yau chu chi...wha?
haha...speak pwoperly...wo pu ming
pai..anyway..jane here's a good fwen
so..God bless her!!! boOya!

JANE, WE ARE SO GAY! I LUBBU-LUBBU U!

ps: we have copyrights over the word lubbu-lubbu, so no stealing.