MY LIST OF RANDOM AND COMPLETELY NON-RELATED UPDATES:

1. it is 2.30 AM and i am still motivated to study. drank a cup of green tea with 2 tea bags. i don't know if it actually works... but i'll psych myself into thinking it does. your mind is more powerful than u think. ( i am still amazed by the story about the beyond obese mexican dude who lost half his weight simply by thinking that he HAD indeed lost weight )

2. i am hungry. practically every night i go to bed with an almost empty stomach and it growls and grumbles until i eventually fall asleep. when i wake up again, the first thing that pops into my mind is "damn, i'm hungry. " i am beginning to feel convinced that i have worms in my stomach...that are only alive when i am in australia ( or at least they're hungrier than when i'm in msia )

3. i want to go shopping so badly. i feel like getting a bikini!!! goodness knows for what cos i don't like swimming in the sea, and everyone knows i don't need to sit under the sun and tan or i'll become charcoal...but i still want one. they're pretty :) although i think i'd still be a little too shy to wear. *blush*

4. 16 days to home and i am getting very excited! *jumps screams dances* evidently..

5. I CANNOT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO END.

6. maybe i'm not as motivated to study as i thought i was. i realised i just spent an hour on the phone...and now i'm blogging. *guilty glance*

7. i've been having sudden desires to open a boutique and design my own clothes in the future. i guess my past dreams and aspirations from when i was 10 are trying to relive themselves. how fun though right? worth a thought.

8. i can't believe i opened my big mouth and told my brother that i would perform a song for his wedding. *faints* now i'm scared. what if i go up there..and i forget my chords?! or...i sing off key?! or...i TRIP?! then again, quite exciting. it's time i stepped out of my comfort zone and did something i know that i would eventually enjoy. (assuming i don't screw up )

9. seriously, freaking hungry.

i can't seem to concentrate on studying right now. maybe it's the emo-ness + stress.

i don't know. don't really care for now. someone give me a hug. (where are u when i need u?!  *pout* )

yesterday marked the end of yet another year in OCF. i can't believe 2 entire semesters have gone by! it's absolutely insane. i know i say this time and time again, but i'll say it once more. TIME FLIES. just this february i was embarking on a new 'journey'..trying my hands at cell leading... and yesterday, i bode farewell to all official cell leading responsibilities. somewhat a relief actually.

looking back, there's so many things i wish i'd done. so many things i could've done better as a leader. yet at the same time, i'm proud of the little that i actually did. i thank God for each of my members who make JustZion, Just Zion. it felt like just yesterday that we were all trying to crack our brains to come up for a name for our cell. crazy! i thank my co-leaders, Bernard and Debbie...who have put so much time and effort into the cell.

it's been a roller coaster ride. sometimes i felt incompetent, unimportant, stressed..and other times i felt joy, pride, loved. still, it didn't matter whether i was on a high or on a low, i knew that God was walking me through it and that's what kept me going. that's what kept ALL of us going, i'm sure.

it's been a good year thus far! only a few months left till we usher in 2009. let's make the most of it!

*two thumbs up to all OCF Clayton 2008 cell leaders!*